Poetry

Watching

It’s not the outside world I fear most;
it’s the inside one, the one so near
that disturbs me.
Everything burns.
The heart.
The soul.
The thoughts
that can find no solace in a world
drenched with blood and flame
and not a cloud in the sky to rain down
purifying waters so desperately needed.
Where did they all go?
It’s like they all left their home to find comfort
and found only rotting streets to walk on
and lack of direction
for all they ever knew was no end
to the struggle and the suffering
and the need for hope and change
that was fooled by empty, rose-scented words
and callous laughter
and even more callous smiles.
When will they wake?
When will their nightmare end?
It can’t end like this,
not with so much good left undone.
It can’t end like this,
not with so much love left ungiven.
It can’t end like this,
not with so many hands left outstretched,
waiting for a savior,
hands that now commit evil deeds
as they were taught evil deeds
by what was done to them.
But how do they not see the harm
they visit on others?
How can they bring harm
knowing how it feels to be harmed?
When will their nightmare end?
When will they wake?
It’s hard to describe how I somehow find
just enough understanding
to want to cry for the blameless on all sides
dragged into the tumultuous storm.
It’s hard to describe how I somehow find
just enough faith in my anti-faith spirit
to hold loyalty to an image of a Savior
abandoned by his people long ago
and abandoned still today by the people
who refuse to listen and walk with him
without desires for revenge or wrongdoing
in the twisted name
of what they convince themselves is justice.
It’s hard to describe how I somehow find
just enough will to make it through the day
when the voice in my head
is the only voice speaking to me,
the only one among far too many
still praying for the innocent lives
who have somehow not yet had
their innocence stricken from them.

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