Watching

It’s not the outside world I fear most; it’s the inside one, the one so near that disturbs me. Everything burns. The heart. The soul. The thoughts that can find no solace in a world drenched with blood and flame and not a cloud in the sky to rain down purifying waters so desperately needed.…

There And Here (Beyond)

What do I feel? I don’t know. What does that mean? Is love not there? Is love not here? And in the absence of love, what fills me, if anything fills me at all? God is love, so where is God? Where is meaning? Is faith not there? Is faith not here? And in the…

Clowns Inspire Laughter

What they do not see is how I hold back the tears, how I am always on the edge of breaking, how much energy it takes to hold the illusion, the shape I hold to appear not crazy. What they do not see is a fight that tears me up, beats me down, knocks me…

Repeating Myself

I wish I could really speak my soul I wish I could truly open my heart but I am already judged when I say what I think. Imagine what I would be for saying how I feel. Deserving pain, I can take pain, that’s how I remain at peace with pain. Does this make me…

Rebell

Sometimes, I just wanna be left the fuck alone. Sometimes, I wanna say “fuck” without people looking at me as if I’ve done something wrong. Sometimes, I just wanna do something wrong without people thinking of me as a failure. Sometimes, I wanna fail without people acting as if I’m completely stupid. Sometimes, I just…